Alright, so let’s go.
I basically just need a space to write down my mind. It gets a lil crazy sometimes. I’ve always been concerned that I’m a lil messed up in the head sometimes. I bet a lot of people feel that way tho. Regardless, there’s nothing I can do about it, so I just tell myself that I am who I am and that I’m destined for greatness. I mean, I could say I’m destined for failure if I am indeed different or even I’m not, though I guess we’re all different. Basically, I believe that what we project our lives to be, our actions and the actions of the world around us will align to create that outcome.
I miss tripping. I felt so confidant in that knowledge of the time, the amazing lessons I learned on the nature of the universe. Illogical, malleable, but it seems like that knowledge is fading. I used to tell myself, never forget the truth. Never doubt, because doubt will only yield the cynicism of the world and I’ll lose the wonderland that is possible
But what if the world at large is correct? What if life isn’t a wonderland we can influence? What if first loves are meant to fail? What if a life of monogamy is naive? I don’t know.
I want to cut back on weed. It’s effect has had no euphoria for the past two weeks or so, I don’t even realize I’m stoned until I’m driving :/
Anyway, that’s my thoughts for now. I’ll return to this